oh hello.

i feel like its been way too long since someone has inspired me to be a better person than i am now. i havent felt the need to change or grow as a person. and frankly, im starting to get bored with things. i dont know. maybe i need to inspire myself. this might take some time..

a lot of things, but i HATE the way you make me feel right now. you had your chance with me. you had a reallly good chance with me. and it ended. and now youre crawling back pretending like everything between us didnt happen. but it did. and i got over it. i got over you. i moved on and fell in love. and now youre here trying to be my friend. IT DOES NOT WORK LIKE THAT. YOU DO NOT GET TO WALK OUT OF MY LIFE LIKE I NEVER MATTERED TO YOU AND THEN COME BACK AND SAY YOU STILL CARE. THAT IS NOT FAIR. i want to cry. i hate when people do this to me. i’m sorry, but youre way too late. and i wish so hard i could be your friend because i swear you were such a good friend to me. but i cant. if i choose between you and evan. you will lose. because youre too late. and you walked out of my life and hurt me for a long time. i hate how things have to be this way. but it does.